#32 The Charlie Kirk Affect

America. Are you awake, yet?

Rather, should I ask, "Christians in America, are we awake yet?"

I'm going to get real honest with y'all for a moment. 

For the past few months, I've been feeling down, depressed and hopeless. I prayed. I tried to fast. I kept going to church. I took a break. I got more involved. I tried hanging out with fellow believers, but I still felt this heaviness on me. I couldn't shake this, no matter what I did. 

It got to the point that I wanted to give up. I wanted to be done with everything. Not with God, just everything and, almost, everyone around me. I didn't see any purpose of going forward in the life. So, I wanted something new. 

When I considered of leaving everything behind, I felt a fight within me-to not give up. I struggled back and forth. Back and forth. I put on the fake smile. I laughed even though I felt sorrowful. 

It wasn't until I stormed out of my church upset, when God reminded me of the two scriptures I begged Him to remind me of if I ever felt like giving up. 

Hebrews chapter 12 and 2 Corinthians 12:9-10. In Hebrews 12 there were four points that stuck out to me. 1. strip off every weight that slows us down. 2. keep your eyes on Jesus. 3. don't give up. 4. take a new grip. In 2 Corinthians12:9-10 told me, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness...For when I am weak, then I am strong."

I didn't realize there was weight on me that I needed to acknowledge first before doing something about it with God. I was struggling to keep my eyes on Jesus when the waves of problems were growing louder and crashing harder against me. And I felt like giving up. 

But a mind-thinking question in a devotion I read a year ago came to mind. 

"What are you doing with your faith?"

Have you ever asked yourself that? What am I doing with my faith? I asked that question and it helped me realize where my focus has been and it wasn't fully on God and God alone. I was being distracted, even by things that are right. 

I don't know about the rest of you Christians out there, but what happened to Charlie Kirk made that question speak louder in my mind: What am I doing with my faith? 

What happened to Charlie Kirk should not cause the Christians to be silent but rather affect the Christians to rise up to fight. Like Hebrews 12:12, "...take a new grip." Just like Charlie, we have a wonderful message to preach to a lost world. This is our faith. Jesus Christ, Him crucified and resurrected-bringing life, hope and truth to us all. 

I don't want to sit back any longer and allow the world to keep me quiet. I'm done allowing the devil to keep me hidden. I'm choosing to strip off the weight, keep my eyes on Jesus, to not give up (or in) and to take this new grip. 

What am I doing with my faith? Sharing it. I'm choosing to share my faith until the day I go home to be with the Lord. 

Charlie Kirk's faith and love for God has reached many, and we Christians, like him, should do the same.

Be blessed fam!

Scripture of the Week:

"For I am not ashamed of the gospel (good news) of Christ, for it is God's power working unto salvation [for deliverance from eternal death] to everyone who believes with a personal trust and a confident surrender and firm reliance, to the Jew first and also to the Greek (Gentile)."

-Romans 1:16 AMPC

Song of the Week:

What A Beautiful Name It Is by Hillsong Worship

I Speak Jesus by Charity Gayle

Hey guys I haven't posted in over a year now! But I look forward to writing and sharing more on my blog! Have a blessed weekend and please keep Charlie Kirks family and friends in prayer.